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deerna. 30+. they/them. ace & queer. a degree in languages. cooking stories and chasing brain worms. always rotting.

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exposed

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Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/cazador
Tags: sexual exploitation, scars, implied abuse, consent issues, torture
Wordcount: 261 / 256 on AO3
Notes: crou wanted astarion being shown off by cazador in a backless dress, so here it is

Summary:

Excerpt:

Whatever poem Cazador had chosen him to be canvas for, he seemed to be quite proud of it.

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assumptions

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Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/cazador, astarion & vampire spawn siblings
Tags: consent issues, implied sexual abuse
Wordcount: 410 / 392 on AO3
Notes: cazador trash party is go! @ smubble discord

Summary:

Excerpt:

Astarion knows that his siblings envy him. He sees it in their eyes, whenever Cazador comes calling at the dormitory door with a snap of his fingers and a curt, sharp order for him to get ready for some party.

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bookends

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Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/halsin/tav (staeve)
Tags: remix, past torture, hurt/comfort, scars
Wordcount: 748 / 719 on AO3
Notes: staeve belongs to velnna/MAF

Summary:
Remix of outlines, by chaiiii, from Staeve's point of view.

Excerpt:

There's a muffled sound coming from Astarion — pain and fear and pleading all rolled in one — and something in Staeve snaps. He wants to murder Cazador so bad.

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sweetest

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Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/halsin
Tags: triggers, past torture
Wordcount: 100 on AO3
Notes: written for the smubbles discord. references this fun thing cazador said.

Summary:
Halsin means to pay a compliment, he accidentally stumbles on a trigger Astarion didn't even know he had.

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call a spade a spade

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Rating: NSFW
Fandom: raven cycle/dreamers trilogy
Relationship: adam/ronan + the rest of the polycule
Tags: drinking and talking, talking about kinks (mentioned fisting, watersports, breathplay)
Wordcount: 569 / 549 on AO3
Notes: written for smubbles - international fisting day

Summary:
Playing truth or dare with the kids. The conversation turns kinky. Henry bites off more than he can chew. Gansey learns new things. Ronan has an overactive imagination.

Excerpt:

Henry harrumphed. “Spoilsport. Okay fine, your funeral, I can still salvage this.” He pointed a finger at Adam like a gun. “Top three kinky nonsense you got up to with Ronan in bed, go.” Adam raised an eyebrow at him.

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mister impossible

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Rating: NSFW
Fandom: raven cycle/dreamer trilogy
Relationship: gansey/ronan
Tags: Breathplay, Kink Negotiation, BDSM Scene, Dream Sex, implied polyamory, Dom/sub
Wordcount: 1764 / 1706 on AO3
Notes: smubbles: nightmares & dreams

Summary:

Excerpt:

Ronan licked his lips. “What if there were a way to do it safely. One hundred percent guaranteed.” Gansey steeled his expression. “There isn’t. Ronan, I promise you. Other people—” “I’m not talking of something easily accessible to other people,” Ronan said.

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fake it

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Rating: NSFW
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/omc
Tags: non-consensual, passed around as a party favor, trash partyyyy, aspyhxiation
Wordcount: N / 100 on AO3
Notes: for the smubble sep23 event

Summary:
astarion's experience with breathplay (spoiler: it's bad)

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how much blood is too much blood

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Rating: SAFE
Fandom: hunter x hunter
Relationship: kurapika/leorio
Tags: Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Near Death Experiences, Blood and Injury, Suicide Attempt, Depression, Timeline What Timeline, Suicidal Thoughts
Wordcount: 805 / 763 on AO3
Notes: for lee! it's late but it's here, finally.

Summary:
Leorio receives a call in the middle of the night. He knows it's Kurapika. He knows it's not a social call.

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on broken backs we beg for mercy

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Rating: NSFW
Fandom: the raven cycle / the dreamers trilogy
Relationship: ronan & hennessy
Tags: Vampire!AU, dub-con, blood drinking, background relationships (adam/ronan, ronan has feelings for gansey, past kavinsky/ronan), a shitton of bad flashbacks.
Wordcount: 13.022 / 12,577 on AO3
Notes: remix of i won't be left here behind closed doors by elliptical

Summary:
What if Hennessy had asked Ronan to come to the party?

Excerpt:

These were the facts: Hennessy was going to get him killed. She was going to ask him to die for her; Ronan was going to bitch about it, and then he was going to do it anyway. He dreamt about walking willingly into it too many times not to recognize it for the prophecy it was. He just hoped it wasn’t going to be that night.

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Screwing

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Rating: SAFE
Fandom: Marvel
Relationship: Bucky/OMC
Tags: POV second person, online dating, crack, chatlogs
Wordcount: 715 / 683 on AO3
Notes: written for the smubbles event that is yet to happen. prompt: this tumblr post

transcription: [chatlog from grindr]
you: I'm not looking to fuck right now, but my bathroom sink is currently flooding the bathroom
you: I know it's kind of random, but can I borrow a flathead screwdriver by any chance?
you: I don't really know my neighbours and you're the closest person to me on Grindr
you:😅
other guy: yeah why not
[end chatlog]

Summary:
The one where your sink breaks while you're trying to get laid, and the Winter Soldier shows up to your door to bring you a screwdriver (and to fuck?)

Excerpt:

You: Hey. I swear I was down to fuck but my sink decided to flood my bathroom and it's kind of a mess right now.

You: I know this is going to sound weird as shit but do you have a flathead screwdriver i can borrow, by any chance?

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Crossroads

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Rating: SAFE
Fandom: The Witcher
Relationship: Jaskier/Geralt
Tags: pre-slash, game-related shenanigans in a netflix timeline, implied underage bc jaskier is a gremlin and is lying about his age
Wordcount: 1445 / 1406 on a03
Notes: largely unbetaed, old as fuck

Summary:

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He looks so young, he thinks. “How old are you, again?” Geralt asks, the question out of his mouth before he can think better of it. [...] “I’ll be nineteen next spring,” he says, in a tone that implies I’m old enough to travel the world with a monster killer, thank you very much. Geralt doesn’t even remember being nineteen.

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Remedies against invisible roommates

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Rating: SAFE
Fandom: Raven Cycle
Relationship: Gansey/Ronan
Tags: pre-slash
Wordcount: 618 / 600 on ao3
Notes: for the smubble event on discord, for the prompt "pretending to sleep as their friend with or without benefits sneak into bed trying not to wake them up. There is silence for a little while, then they hear it whispered for the first time, almost too softly to hear: "I love you.”" except not really

Summary:

Excerpt:

Gansey and Ronan never talked about it. They stayed awake, plagued by insomnia, on different sides of a door.

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what my heart just yearns to say in ways that can't be said

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Rating: NSFW
Fandom: the witcher
Relationship: Geralt/Jaskier (mention of past eskel/geralt and geralt/ofc)
Tags: asexual Geralt, explicit/implicit sexual content (blow jobs, hand jobs, semi-public sex, anal), serious injuries, hurt/comfort, vomiting, temporary hearing loss, consensual underage sex, mention of sex workers, canon-typical witcher childhood, communication, non-sexual intimacy, hair brushing, burns
Wordcount: 9047
Notes: written for śmiech! Thanks for being so patient ;;

Summary:
Jaskier and Geralt are in a relationship. While Geralt does have feelings for Jaskier, he struggles to think about sex as anything other than something transactional. What else could a witcher like him offer to someone like Jaskier, after all?

Excerpt:

Not much changes between them: the witcher kills monsters; the bard sings. But also: they fuck.

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death isn't gonna help you - 5627

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water is sound, sound is water

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through the cracks

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Rating: NSFW
Fandom: Shadow and Bone / Six of Crows
Relationship: Jesper/Kaz
Tags: masturbation, sexual fantasy, dom/sub undertones
Wordcount: 381
Notes: COWT2022 M3 dominant

Summary:

Excerpt:

Sometimes Jesper touches himself and thinks about Kaz Brekker watching him, both hands still wrapped in his gloves gripping the handle of the cane. He tries not to think about it too much.

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colours and promises

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Rating: NSFW
Fandom: The Witcher
Relationship: Eskel/Geralt/Jaskier
Tags: Bruises, Marking, Background Relationships, Polyamory, Kink Negotiation, Implied Sexual Content
Wordcount: 1331
Notes: written for M2 @ COWT2022

Summary:

Excerpt:

Jaskier wrapped his hand around Geralt’s forearm, trying to fit it into the mark Eskel had left. The other witcher’s hands were so much bigger than his. “Well, of course,” he mused. “This is more about remembering the feeling, isn’t it? Having something to remind us of him when he’s not here.”

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about those definitions

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Rating: NSFW
Fandom: Fullmetal Alchemist
Relationship: Edward Elric/Roy Mustang
Tags: suicide ideation, post-canon, age difference, alcohol abuse, ptsd, unhealthy coping mechanisms, self-harm, background winry/edward, infidelity, dark themes, slight masochism/sadism
Wordcount: 4171
Notes: COWT2022 M2, la cruna dell'ago (wordcount originale: 2990)

Summary:
Roy and Edward meet in a pub.

Excerpt:

The napkin gets scribbled on some more, then Edward gives up on it. He pushes the pen and the paper away and pulls his leg close to his chest. Roy doesn’t know how he doesn’t topple over, stool and everything. “Dunno. A couple glasses before bed help me sleep, and don’t leave me too groggy in the morning. And you know, all this fucking consultation work is just so fucking stressful, I just—a glass in the evening, to relax. And I come here, sometimes—I know what you’re thinking. That’s not it.”

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A million stars far away

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Rating: SAFE
Fandom: Dungeon & Dragons
Relationship: Arun & Niv
Tags: talking about death, graphic descriptions, missing scene
Wordcount: 941
Notes: M1, future

Summary:

Excerpt:

“This is actually fine. How can it not be fine? I accidentally called some fucking monster from the depths of nowhere, feeling the consequences lurking in my guts for a decade until they literally started turning into rot, and now we— I have a chance at life, now? I might have a future? What am I even going to do with that?”

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it's the small things

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Rating: NSFW
Fandom: Fullmetal Alchemist
Relationship: Roy Mustang/Edward Elric
Tags: trans edward elric, first time, oral sex, post-canon
Wordcount: 672
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Summary:

Excerpt:

“We don’t have to do anything you don’t want to,” Roy says. “We can go slow.”
“What? No, fuck slow, I’m just—look, you probably already know all about it, since you’re annoying like that, but just in case I—just don’t want it to be a surprise when my dick isn’t—” he flounders for a moment, gesturing awkwardly, “—there.”
Roy blinks. “What?”

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