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indulgence

2026-03-04T00:36:00Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate 3
Relationship: astarion/staeve
Tags: first kiss, canon compliant
Wordcount: 231
Notes: staeve belongs to Velnna/MAF.

Summary:
kissing after the confession

Excerpt:

“Would it be alright if I kissed you, now?”
Astarion laughed. “You don’t have to ask.”
“Indulge me,” Staeve murmured. “I just wanted to be sure.”

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something real

2026-02-16T17:21:15Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/staeve
Tags: canon, missing moment, spooning
Wordcount: 509
Notes: staeve belongs to Velnna/MAF.

Summary:
the night after astarion's confession

Excerpt:

Staeve longed to press his lips to the nape of his neck just above the collar of his shirt, and trace the line of his spine with his mouth. A kiss for each bony bump, each administered with loving attention, until Astarion melted with pleasure under his care— but that recipe of intimacy didn’t exist anymore. Maybe it never did.

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masterpost 2026

2026-02-08T02:08:31Z

Posted by: deerna

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don't touch me

2026-02-08T02:05:14Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate 3
Relationship: astarion/staeve
Tags: developing relationship, set during canon, implied/referenced abuse
Wordcount: 1013
Notes: bday gift for alex, the redux edition

Summary:
a moment of vulnerability as they walk through the shadowlands

Excerpt:

The hand on his shoulder was nothing like his master’s. It was gentle, and warm (the kindest touch he could remember on this side of a century, even through the layers of leather and armour—) but had Astarion’s heart still been beating, it would have leapt right out of his throat.

“Don’t touch me,” he snapped, a choked gasp.

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obey

2025-11-03T21:43:09Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion & cazador
Tags: pre-canon, bad flirting
Wordcount: 439
Notes:

Summary:
astarion gets picked up at a club

Excerpt:

Red eyes. Then he became aware of the man they belonged to – a pale elf with elegant, sharp features and black hair. He wasn’t young, nor old, in a timeless way that suggested that years had long stopped having meaning to him. His expression didn’t betray any emotion, except for interested intensity.

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the collector

2025-08-15T21:09:24Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: the dreamer trilogy - maggie stiefvater
Relationship: ronan & gansey
Tags: non canon compliant, identity issues, magical artifacts, mind control (kinda), human trafficking
Wordcount: 1862
Notes: drafted before Greywaren was released

Summary:
Ronan gets kidnapped and his abilities exploited to create magical artifacts to be sold at the Fairy Market. Gansey comes to rescue him AKA one of niall's dreamt objects bites ronan in the ass

Excerpt:

“That’s not how it works,” the Collector pointed out, back to business. “You see, Richard, we don’t quite trade in art per se. We trade in wishes. Anything you could possibly want.” He smiled. “Anything you can dream of.”

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pattern cloning

2025-07-26T15:36:08Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/staeve
Tags: kissing, getting dressed
Wordcount: 1128
Notes: part of the sewing series

Summary:
astarion makes staeve a new shirt

Excerpt:

“Babe,” he called out to Astarion, who was going around the house drawing the black-out curtains on all the windows before the sun could get in. “Am I tripping?”

“You’re going to have to be a little more specific than that, darling,” Astarion replied from the other room. “Tripping about what?”

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to a long life

2025-05-22T21:29:48Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion & callaern (OC)
Tags: post-canon, modern canon au, vampires, ritual suicide, cultists, philosophical
Wordcount: 3156
Notes: commissioned by sil | astarion was turned into a true vampire ignoring actual game mechanics bc i could, stfu

Summary:
astarion gets approached by a familiar face and asked about his purpose in life.

Excerpt:

"How are you holding up, after breaking up with that last sweet thing?”

The bottle didn’t slip out of Astarion’s grip, but it was a near thing. Its thick glass thudded loudly against the polished wood when he set it down, a tightness in his chest.

He narrowed his eyes at Callaern, but the vampire held his gaze without flinching.

“Such a horrible habit of yours, asking questions you already know the answer to.”

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MASTERLIST 2025

2025-01-12T21:33:53Z

Posted by: deerna

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new ties

2025-01-06T16:22:02Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: dnd — silver sun
Relationship: michel poubelle & ilona poubelle
Tags: adopted family, sibling dynamic
Wordcount: 981
Notes: michel and ilona belong to MAF

Summary:
michel shaves his tail, ilona helps him make it pretty again

Excerpt:

“It looks like Florian's now.”

The naked contempt in her voice was so absolute it made Michel forget he was upset for a moment. He turned to her, amused and caught off guard. “What's wrong with Florian's? Doesn't yours look the same?”

“Of course not. Florian's is boring.”

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flattery

2024-11-04T00:11:01Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/staeve
Tags: fluff, domestic
Wordcount: 305
Notes: staeve belongs to Velnna/MAF.

Summary:

Excerpt:

Astarion was speechless for an instant. How Staeve could say that sort of thing and mean it, with so much ease, was still beyond him. “Flatterer,” he accused him, biting down on the emotion threatening to overwhelm him.

“Does it count as flattery, if it’s the truth?”

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liar's night

2024-11-03T22:13:07Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/staeve
Tags: Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Intimacy, mentions of abuse, Grief/Mourning, Coping, Bittersweet
Wordcount: 1055
Notes: staeve belongs to Velnna/MAF, a thousand thanks for letting me play with him ♥ || liar's night (and its extended version, Masquerade of Liars) is the main inspiration for the halloween-esque holiday i invented for this fic, mostly bc of the pickpocketing, the disguises and the candy.

Summary:
a halloween-adjacent fic where astarion and staeve share their experiences with the holiday, and end up having a deeper conversation than either of them expected

Excerpt:

“Don’t get me wrong, the festivities themselves sound thrilling,” Astarion said, quickly. “The chance of wandering around all night without suspicion, wearing fancy and dramatic outfits, pick-pocketing with no consequence… what’s not to love, especially for a vampire and a rogue like yours truly?” He exaggerated the sing-song in his voice to amuse Staeve, and he was rewarded by a small, charmed smile. He cleared his throat before continuing, a sudden tightness strangling him. “I just have—poor memories of the Night itself.”

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away from it all

2024-09-16T23:50:42Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/amar
Tags: after-cazador quest, hot springs, nightmares
Wordcount: 2200
Notes: commission for reijen

Summary:
Astarion struggles with dealing with the aftermath of the fight. Amar knows him well.

Excerpt:

It occurred to Astarion that Amar had put a lot more thought into this. A quiet place, a different environment from what Astarion was used to—something that he could not associate to his life, but he could associate to their shenanigans, to their new adventures. To Amar, rather than to— before.

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reburial

2024-09-16T21:43:46Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/staeve
Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Serious Injuries, Rescue Missions, Developing Relationship, Dissociation, Implied/Referenced Abuse
Wordcount: 3604
Notes: first and foremost, the usual disclaimer: staeve belongs to Velnna/MAF, the brain rot is all mine.

timeline-wise, this happens a few days after this comic, for no other reason that i loved the idea of a still recovering staeve digging astarion out while thinking about his words over and over... (i love that line sm, im obsessed)

Summary:
astarion gets buried in a cave-in. staeve digs him out, and deals with the aftermath.

Excerpt:

But the rest of him was buried, buried, buried, the unshakeable fear of a recurring nightmare, of having been once again left to starve for twelve moons, curled on one side in the unfeeling embrace of marble, death and ancient mould his only companions.

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aching knees

2024-07-05T22:59:57Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/staeve
Tags: dissociation, implied torture, implied sexual assault, hurt/comfort
Wordcount: 305
Notes: staeve belongs to Velnna/MAF.

Summary:
astarion tries to give staeve head and he dissociates about it

Excerpt:

His back hurt. It wasn't the pain of flayed skin. It wasn't the pain of carved flesh. It wasn't the pain of acid pours. It wasn't the pain of sunlight burns. He ached, but his bones weren't creaking with hidden cracks. He ached.

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stranger

2024-07-05T20:53:03Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion & staeve
Tags: different first meeting AU, referenced/implied suicide ideation,
Wordcount: 1441
Notes: staeve belongs to Velnna/MAF.

Summary:

what if staeve and astarion met earlier than the tadpole? let's say much earlier.

Excerpt:

“Excuse me,” Vesta whispered, gathering all the courage he had. “Do you need help?”

The stranger hadn’t heard him approach. He started badly, his body twitching upright, flattening against the wall like a cornered animal. His eyes were a brilliant, unreal red, the only spot of real colour almost glowing in the grey-scale darkness surrounding them.

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interwoven

2024-06-05T21:54:12Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: the under garden (MAF)
Relationship: kostya & maxim
Tags: dreams, missing moment, snuggling & cuddling
Wordcount: 652
Notes: the under garden is a work by velnna | MAF that you can read on gumroad. this particular missing moment is set between chapter 5 and 6 (the latter still unpublished at the moment of posting)

Summary:
Kostya has a dream while a stranger is sleeping in his bed.

Excerpt:

“Are you scared of me, kitten?”

Rough with sleep, Maxim’s voice echoed through Kostya’s ribcage, reverberated down his spine. Violet irises peeked from under heavy eyelids.

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my cup runneth over

2024-06-01T21:14:33Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/elior
Tags: What-If, Vampire Bites, Blood and Injury
Wordcount: 840
Notes: happy birthday k_ecus! ♥

Summary:
astarion cannot use healing potions (or so he thinks). a different take on the first he bites a thinking creature.

Excerpt:

“I can bleed some into a cup, if it makes you more comfortable,” Elior said, misunderstanding Astarion’s silence.

“That would be a waste of perfectly good blood.” Astarion’s mouth felt both dry as bone, and drenched with drool, like a beast getting ready to tear into its prey. “I will gladly bite you."

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bhaal's games alliances

2024-05-17T13:57:22Z

Posted by: deerna

Wordcount: 640
Notes: written for the bhaal's games at MAF lounge; featuring sgriosair (chelle), valentine (ulysses), manelys (tinycreature), yaris (sabu/iruka), nymea (nubbins)

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bonds

2024-05-17T12:46:04Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: the under garden (MAF)
Relationship: olga & staeve & kori
Tags: swearing, word play
Wordcount: 266
Notes: the under garden is a work by velnna | MAF that you can read on gumroad. i know nothing of kori, take his characterisation with a grain of salt

Summary:

Excerpt:

“Anthill,” Staeve repeated, “starts with an A. Say something that starts with B, now.”

She tilted her head at him. “Why.”

“It’s a game.” It suddenly seemed a stupid idea, but when did that ever stop him? “I say anthill, what says you?”

Olga stared him down for a moment, and then in a flat voice she said, “Bollocks.”

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quiet evenings

2024-05-12T11:03:54Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/staeve
Tags: post-canon, couch cuddles
Wordcount: 655
Notes: staeve belongs to Velnna/MAF.

Summary:

Excerpt:

“You’re such a cat,” Staeve teased Astarion, poking his nose. “You’ll make Slippers jealous.”

“She can deal,” Astarion sniffled, mock-offended. “She did steal my spot, after all.”

Staeve chuckled, and they both glanced down at the kitten curled up on his lap, her nose ridiculously and adorably tucked under her paw. “Don’t be mad at her, she’s very small and her life is very hard,” he cooed, scritching the fur between her ears with a careful fingernail.

“I’m not mad, I’m jealous.”

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pretty boy

2024-04-26T14:49:52Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: NSFW
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: hébée/staeve
Tags: pegging, fingering, pwp
Wordcount: 1174
Notes: staeve belongs to Velnna/MAF. hébée belongs to raphaellearp.

Summary:
Hébée and Staeve have a fun night together.

Excerpt:

While Staeve watched her, Hébée pulled her shirt over her head and let it drop to the side. His flush deepened and his grin widened, his eyes wandered down her chest and the rest of her.

“Do you like what you see?” she purred. She was already wearing her cock, and she knew she looked good. She grabbed it at the base and showed it off a little. “Are you ready for me?”

“I am always ready,” he boasted. “Especially for this.”

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drinking games

2024-04-26T14:10:34Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: NSFW
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astaria/staevia
Tags: au!genderbend, drunken shenanigans, body shots, kissing, cunnilingus, drunken sex, alcohol
Wordcount: 1162
Notes: staevia belongs to Velnna/MAF.

Summary:
the other one where they're girls and they're drunk off their asses

Excerpt:

“More alcohol? Aren’t we drunk enough?” Astaria laughed [...]

“Speak for yourself, lightweight,” Staevia sniffled at her, affronted. “I’m prefectly—” Nope. “Preferably—” Nope. “…Very sober.” Good enough.

Astaria just laughed harder. She tried to stifle her giggling with one hand, and to swat Staevia with the other. She missed by about a mile. Staevia also exploded in a fit of snickering. Gods, she was in love with her. “Alright, maybe I am a li’l drunk.”

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visible mending

2024-04-24T21:39:21Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: Astarion/Staeve
Tags: developing relationship, claiming, declarations of love, background poly (astarion/halsin/staeve
Wordcount: 1440
Notes: Visible mending • A form of repair work, usually on textile items, that is deliberately left visible. The dual goals of this practice are to adorn the item, and to attract attention to the fact it has been mended in some way - a critique of the idea of replacing broken items with new ones without trying to bring them back to full functionality. | staeve belongs to Velnna/MAF.

Summary:
Staeve has a moment ™️ about the bits of embroidery Astarion has been leaving on his clothes. Astarion has a moment about him having a moment.

i know the kindest thing is to (never) leave you alone part 4 of 4

Excerpt:

It was a simple thing. A little bit of thread stitched in a bit of fabric. He didn’t know why, but unspeakable emotions bubbled in his chest, squeezed his ribs. Staeve was so overwhelmed he had to sit back on the bed for a while, his fingertips running over Astarion’s handiwork again and again. Wondering how he had missed something so obvious. Wondering what else he had missed.

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weaving loose ends

2024-04-20T11:12:39Z

Posted by: deerna

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/staeve
Tags: Developing Relationship, Astarion's Past Abuse (Baldur's Gate), Late Night Conversations
Wordcount: 1649
Notes: staeve belongs to Velnna/MAF.

Summary:

staeve falls asleep on astarion's lap, and catches him humming to himself. late night conversations about a forgotten past and an unexpected future.

i know the kindest thing is to (never) leave you alone part 3 of 4

Excerpt:

“I didn’t know you could sing,” Staeve mumbled.

Astarion made a noise in the back of his throat. “I can’t. Well. I can, but I’m not very good at it,” he conceded. “When did you hear me sing?”

“Just now. I think.” Maybe he had dreamed it.

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