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death isn't gonna help you - 5627

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water is sound, sound is water

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through the cracks

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Rating: NSFW
Fandom: Shadow and Bone / Six of Crows
Relationship: Jesper/Kaz
Tags: masturbation, sexual fantasy, dom/sub undertones
Wordcount: 381
Notes: COWT2022 M3 dominant

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Sometimes Jesper touches himself and thinks about Kaz Brekker watching him, both hands still wrapped in his gloves gripping the handle of the cane. He tries not to think about it too much.

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colours and promises

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Rating: NSFW
Fandom: The Witcher
Relationship: Eskel/Geralt/Jaskier
Tags: Bruises, Marking, Background Relationships, Polyamory, Kink Negotiation, Implied Sexual Content
Wordcount: 1331
Notes: written for M2 @ COWT2022

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Jaskier wrapped his hand around Geralt’s forearm, trying to fit it into the mark Eskel had left. The other witcher’s hands were so much bigger than his. “Well, of course,” he mused. “This is more about remembering the feeling, isn’t it? Having something to remind us of him when he’s not here.”

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about those definitions

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Rating: NSFW
Fandom: Fullmetal Alchemist
Relationship: Edward Elric/Roy Mustang
Tags: suicide ideation, post-canon, age difference, alcohol abuse, ptsd, unhealthy coping mechanisms, self-harm, background winry/edward, infidelity, dark themes, slight masochism/sadism
Wordcount: 4171
Notes: COWT2022 M2, la cruna dell'ago (wordcount originale: 2990)

Summary:
Roy and Edward meet in a pub.

Excerpt:

The napkin gets scribbled on some more, then Edward gives up on it. He pushes the pen and the paper away and pulls his leg close to his chest. Roy doesn’t know how he doesn’t topple over, stool and everything. “Dunno. A couple glasses before bed help me sleep, and don’t leave me too groggy in the morning. And you know, all this fucking consultation work is just so fucking stressful, I just—a glass in the evening, to relax. And I come here, sometimes—I know what you’re thinking. That’s not it.”

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A million stars far away

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Rating: SAFE
Fandom: Dungeon & Dragons
Relationship: Arun & Niv
Tags: talking about death, graphic descriptions, missing scene
Wordcount: 941
Notes: M1, future

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“This is actually fine. How can it not be fine? I accidentally called some fucking monster from the depths of nowhere, feeling the consequences lurking in my guts for a decade until they literally started turning into rot, and now we— I have a chance at life, now? I might have a future? What am I even going to do with that?”

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In the midst of chaos

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Rating: SAFE
Fandom: The Witcher
Relationship: Jaskier & Yennefer
Tags: Injuries, Enemies to Friends, Pre-slash, Trials of the Grasses-related gross stuff, a little gore
Wordcount: 2011
Notes: n/a

Summary:
Yennefer asks Geralt to fetch a rare ingredient for her. Geralt gets badly hurt and a very angry Jaskier drags him to the sorceress's house so she can heal him. The witcher is saved. Two enemies find out they have more in common they think.

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She could handle being jealous—she could understand jealousy; but that irrational irritation towards a man that appeared to be using Geralt for his own gain, just to become famous, told unspeakable things about her own feelings towards the witcher, and it was intolerable.

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Half a century of dead ends

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Rating: SAFE
Fandom: The Witcher
Relationship: Jaskier/Geralt, Eskel/Geralt
Tags: Trans Male Character, Relationship Negotiation, Polyamory, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Trauma, Miscommunication, Conflict Resolution, Scents & Smells, Awkward Conversations
Wordcount: 3277
Notes: Partecipa alla seconda settimana del COWT di landedifandom, per la missione #2. Prompt: Banana Yoshimoto, "Memoria di un vicolo cieco".

Summary:
Eskel finds Geralt in Jaskier's company in the last inn before the path to Kaer Morhen. He comes in for a good-natured session of teasing, he stays for a difficult conversation. After fifty years of dead ends, they finally find an exit route.

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Geralt scraped the bottom of his plate with his spoon and sighed. “What did I tell you, Jaskier?”

Jaskier smiled. “Not to bring up the sex thing with Eskel.” He touched the inside of Geralt’s wrist with a finger, dipping slightly under the sleeve. “And what did I tell you, Geralt?”

“That you were going to do it anyway. You could’ve waited after dinner.”

Eskel shook his head, using his sleeve to mop up the ale that dribbled from his mouth. “That’s not the kind of embarrassing story about our childhoods I hoped to reminisce about.”

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When you can’t find your tongue and when your rationale weeps

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Rating: NSFW
Fandom: The Witcher
Relationship: Jaskier/Geralt
Tags: Getting Together, Between Episodes, slight canon divergence i guess, Oral Sex, Hand Jobs, Dirty Talk, Dom/sub Undertones, Hair-pulling, Come Swallowing, Come Marking, Enthusiastic Consent, Miscommunication
Wordcount: 3372
Notes: Title from Helter Skeleton by The Gaslighting Anthem. Partecipa alla settima settimana del COWT per la missione M6, prompt: Rimpiangere ciò che non è stato (e porvi rimedio)

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Geralt never considered Jaskier as a sexual partner until the bard asked him, as a hypothetical question, if he would ever let him suck his cock. As a friend, of course; Jaskier would have never imagined to impose himself as a romantic partner on him, because of course Geralt with his looks could certainly do better than some bard.
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Jaskier sat on the bed a little heavily, like his knees had gone weak under his weight. “Are you telling me you’ve been thinking about it, Geralt?” he said, and it probably meant to sound teasing, but his voice was more gravelly than usual, and Geralt could smell the sharp spike of arousal on him. “You would really let me?”

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Irreconcilable marks

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Rating: NSFW
Fandom: The Witcher
Relationship: Geralt/Jaskier
Tags: Post series, established relationship, scars, body worship, frottage
Wordcount: 1221
Notes: Partecipa alla settima settimana del COWT per la missione #6. Prompt: Una ricostruzione impegnativa.

Summary:
Geralt shows up with a scar on his face. Jaskier is used to scars, but not quite like this.

Excerpt:

It’s not too bad, honestly. Geralt still looks exactly the same, not even a new wrinkle around his eyes or his mouth (damn him), beside the pink, angry line that cuts deep in his eyebrow and continues down his cheekbone. He winces and tells him, “Well, that looks really bad,” anyway, because he can’t stop picturing the blood dripping down his face, the snarl of pain and annoyance.

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Moonflower | 513 words

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( Despite everything, Arun used to know kindness; they just pretended they didn’t, because it was easier to leave places behind when they knew they weren’t welcome there. ) Read more... )
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Melting

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Rating: NSFW
Fandom: Good Omens
Relationship: Aziraphale/Crowley
Tags: BDSM, Bad BDSM Etiquette, Impact Play, Body Horror, Broken Bones, Dom/sub, Dom Aziraphale (Good Omens), Sub Crowley (Good Omens), Burns, Masochism, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
Wordcount: 640
Notes: Partecipa alla quarta settimana del COW-T per il prompt "Non pronunciare falsa testimonianza" (M3)

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The fourth mark is Aziraphale’s limit. “It’s enough,” he says, taking away the letter opener.

Crowley opens his mouth to protest, but nothing comes out. He lowers his head, feeling ashamed. Ungrateful. A voice swells inside his mind, loud like a crying child and as grating as his nerves. He doesn’t want to stop; he deserves the pain, he needs more, he wants—

“Thank you, angel.”

Demons don't cry: their tears had been burned off with their wings and their haloes and their feelings. But Crowley’s throat feels tight, full of molten gold, pouring between the cracks.

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Something About Seattle

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Rating: SAFE
Fandom: Voltron Legendary Defenders
Relationship: Lance/Shiro, Keith/Lance/Shiro
Tags: Cryptids AU,
Wordcount: 2421
Notes: This is heavily influenced by this bunch of posts on tumblr I found years ago that detailed why Seattle was the best place for cryptids to live. I had plotted a whole thing with a road trip and Keith being trolled by local cryptids, but it never really went past the draft stage. I found it again a few days ago and I felt sorry for this unfinished miserable mess, so I fixed it up a little and gave it a new dress. It's weird but I like it. Enjoy. Partecipa alla seconda settimana del COWT per la M3. Prompt: Dov'è.

Summary:
After his father's death, Keith develops an obsession with Seattle. He's convinced his mother is there. He goes looking for her; he finds the truth about himself instead, and maybe love.

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Before he knew, Keith had built himself a life in the city. He had two or three jobs depending on the week, an apartment, roommates. Crushes. Butterflies in his stomach. The original reasons for which he had come to Seattle seemed so distant, so trivial.

Cryptids didn’t exist. He didn’t know if his mother had been from Seattle, really. He didn’t even know what he was looking for, aside from a life for himself.

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Silver Strings 1/2

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Rating: safe
Fandom: The Witcher
Relationship: Geralt/Jaskier
Tags: Pre-Slash, Canon-Typical Violence, Missing Scene, Sharing a Bed, Sharing a Room, Bathing/Washing, Scars, Massage, Hair Washing
Wordcount: 2263
Notes: Partecipa alla M3 della #1 settimana del COWT10

Summary:
Geralt comes to Oxenfurt to sell scrap metal, and stays to see Jaskier perform. He doesn't get to leave. Not yet.

Excerpt:

“No, I’m just... going,” Geralt finishes, lamely, gesturing. “Back on the Path.”

Jaskier gapes at him. “You know it's the middle of the night, right?”

Geralt pats the bag at his side, feels for his last Cat potion. His very last potion. “I can see in the dark. The blizzard shouldn't hit for another couple hours or so—”

“I know you can, but Roach can't! Stop mistreating that poor horse—hold up, you can smell blizzards now? Don’t answer.”

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Kitsune

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Rating: SAFE
Fandom: Shouwa Genroku Rakugo Shinjuu
Relationship: Sukeroku/Kikuhiko
Tags: pre-slash, missing moment
Wordcount: 500
Notes: Questa storia partecipa alla sesta settimana del COWT di landedifandom per la missione di salvataggio.

Summary:
Sukeroku might have lost Kikuhiko before he could meet him.

Excerpt:

Kikuhiko takes a drag from his cigarette, blows the smoke almost in his face and smiles; he looks so different from that unsecure kid crying in the bath Sukeroku met so long ago. Older.

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A love affair that glides on the offshore tides

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Rating: SAFE
Fandom: Inception
Relationship: Arthur/Eames
Tags: Cheating, Arthur is married to a OMC, pining, canon typical violence.
Wordcount: 689
Notes: Questa storia partecipa alla Nona Edizione del COWT di LandeDiFandom per la M2 della quarta settimana, con il seguente prompt: Tradire il proprio partner.

Summary:
Arthur gets married to someone who isn't in the industry. He thinks he's gonna be happy, but he didn't consider how much he would miss dreaming. He asks Eames for help, and then it becomes something else.

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PASIV compounds aren’t addictive; dreaming is. Arthur shakes through the whole thing, stuttering and apologizing, as Eames hook them both to the machine, speaking reassuring, soft words like to a spooked horse. Five minutes, and then five more, and then fifteen; Eames watches Arthur build and destroy and rebuild and manipulate the reality of the dream, laughing like a kid.

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Lost in the blood

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Rating: SAFE
Fandom: Overwatch
Relationship: Genji Shimada & Hanzo Shimada
Tags: Pre-Canon, Blackwatch Era, Overwatch Recall, slight body horror, sexual fantasies about Mercy, Reaper and McCree, Brotherly bonding, Mention of Zenyatta & Mondatta,
Wordcount: 1185
Notes: Questa storia partecipa alla Nona Edizione del COWT di LandeDiFandom per la M2 della terza settimana, con il seguente prompt: Tutte le famiglie felici si somigliano. (Lev Tolstoj, Anna Karenina)

Summary:
Family is a concept unfamiliar to Genji. He eventually learns what it means, and he wants Hanzo to have the same thing he has.

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Genji cleans and meditates and cooks for himself. He wonders about these omnics who were born without mothers, without fathers, without siblings. They formed their own families, unashamed of their need of being together.

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Maybe Fate Will Catch Us As We Fall

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Rating: SAFE | Mature
Fandom: Overwatch
Relationship: Jesse McCree/Genji Shimada
Tags: Post-Recall, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Starting over, Making up
Wordcount: 1236
Notes: Fill per la M5 della Ottava Settimana del COWT di Lande Di Fandom

Summary:
Genji and McCree meet again during the Recall, and they realize that things aren't the same as they were in Blackwatch anymore. They have a chance to start again.

Excerpt:

Their days in the Recalled Overwatch were like family pictures from another universe. Many things were just as Jesse remembered them- but right when he was sinking in the illusion of having travelled ten years in the past, a tiny detail yanked him back in the present.

Like the sound of that laughter.

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Bonds

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Endless Climb

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