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[personal profile] deerna2023-12-01 01:42 am

the finest tool

Rating: NSFW
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: klaus/logue
Tags: knifeplay, bloodplay, d/s undertones, BDSM, brainwashing
Wordcount: 434 / 424 on AO3
Notes: Listen, I don’t even know what this is. velnna and chaiiii authorized me to act on vibes, and i dissociated for a hour and a half and then delivered. Logue and Klaus (“Master”) belong to them, they’re part of Staeve’s backstory, and I absolutely know nothing about them except that [redacted] and [redacted].

Summary:
Logue services his Master with his best skill.

Excerpt:

“No, Logue,” his Master stopped him. There was amusement in his soft voice, languid and distant. “Be obedient. What did I say?”
Logue bit his lip, but he didn’t lick his finger. He shifted back to his knees, and went back to his task.

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[personal profile] deerna2023-11-01 01:19 am

a difficult dance

Rating: NSFW
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/halsin
Tags: AU!canon divergence, dub-con, consent issues, astarion's past abuse, outdoor sex, hand jobs, blowjobs, frottage, kissing, ear touching, kink negotiation, mutual masturbation, dissociation, spoilers for astarion's backstory
Wordcount: 3200 / 3088 on AO3
Notes: a little context -- this is sort of canon divergence where astarion targets halsin instead of tav, because Beeg Elf Archdruid sounds like a good candidate to keep himself safe. if this were happening in game, it would be the very first sex scene with astarion after the party, basically: it's their first encounter, and halsin doesn't know anything about astarion, except that he's a vampire. on the other hand: this was supposed to be just a bit of fun where halsin touched astarion's ears and found out he liked it, and then i lost the plot.

Summary:
Halsin and Astarion's first sexual encounter, away from camp while everyone is sleeping. Just a bit of fun, uncomplicated and straight-forward--until Halsin realizes something about Astarion is off.

Excerpt:

Halsin caught his wrists, bringing him close enough to slot their knees together. “Nothing would please me more than pleasuring you,” he replied, keeping his voice light and playful. “Don’t you think that makes us rather the perfect match?” He ran his hands lightly up his arms, along his shoulders and his neck, until he was cradling his jaw in his palms. “I have no intention of rejecting you, Astarion.”

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[personal profile] deerna2023-11-27 01:07 am

healing

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/halsin/staeve
Tags: nightmares, hurt/comfort
Wordcount: 1695 / 1629 on AO3
Notes: Staeve belongs to velnna.

Summary:
Astarion has nightmares. All his lovers can do sometimes, is wait. Healing is a difficult journey.

Excerpt:

Halsin held Staeve close, rubbing his shoulders to comfort him, to comfort himself. He focused on his breathing, shallow but warm against his skin, as he made himself watch Astarion as he kept writhing on the bedroll, plagued by invisible touches, crying out from time—it was hard to witness, especially knowing they could do nothing but wait.

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[personal profile] deerna2023-11-25 12:55 am

which way you hold the knife

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: raven cycle
Relationship: gansey/ronan
Tags: power dynamics, miscommunication, dom/sub undertones
Wordcount: 100 / 100 on AO3
Notes: for the prompt, which is almost as long as the drabble itself: "you dont want to hurt me but i am asking you to hurt me. i need you to stab me. i need you to carve this out of me. i need you to cut something off of me. this will hurt both of us in incredible ways. yours are the only hands i trust enough to wield this knife. you do not want to hurt me. i am asking you to hurt me.

Summary:

Excerpt:

Gansey had held out his hand, with the intention of lifting him up in his palm, and Ronan had put a knife in it instead.

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[personal profile] deerna2023-11-25 12:52 am

clinging

Rating: NSFW
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/multi, astarion/cazador
Tags: breeding bench, non-con drug use, aphrodisiacs, bodily fluids, non-con bondage, public humiliation, public scene, consent issues, ankle cuffs, hair-pulling, bad bdsm
Wordcount: 100 / 100 on AO3
Notes: prompt: breeding bench

Summary:

Excerpt:

Memory clings to Astarion’s brain—bending over the bench, a cold hand between his shoulder-blades.

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[personal profile] deerna2023-11-20 12:46 am

trapped

Rating: NSFW
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/cazador, astarion & petras
Tags: torture, torture porn, power imbalance, sexual slavery, exploitation, hurt no comfort, angst, corsetry, blood and torture, injury, broken bones, tightlacing
Wordcount: 2600 / 2527 on AO3
Notes: Disclaimer before anyone starts riding my ass about corsets!!!!! This is torture porn. this is a magic fictional corset I made up to be sturdy and evil so that Cazador could be an asshole to Astarion. Real life corsets aren't uncomfortable if worn correctly and fit to size. You can breathe in a corset, and it won't break your ribs. Tightlacing might require training but afaik isn't inherently dangerous— also tight lacing focuses on waist reduction and not whatever the fuck gets Cazador's rocks off. Why did Cazador pick this particular way to be an asshole? I don't know, I don't care, and neither should you. Suspension of disbelief beam!!!

Summary:
some cazador/astarion torture porn, featuring petras as an accessory to crimes and a corset.

Excerpt:

He could see the pieces of Cazador’s plan align in front of him — the party, a punishment yet to be delivered, Petras — but they kept escaping his grasp, as they slipped just under the surface of logic. Frustration went to add itself to the load of distress weighing on his chest.

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[personal profile] deerna2023-11-19 12:40 am

exposed

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/cazador
Tags: sexual exploitation, scars, implied abuse, consent issues, torture
Wordcount: 261 / 256 on AO3
Notes: crou wanted astarion being shown off by cazador in a backless dress, so here it is

Summary:

Excerpt:

Whatever poem Cazador had chosen him to be canvas for, he seemed to be quite proud of it.

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[personal profile] deerna2023-11-19 12:32 am

assumptions

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/cazador, astarion & vampire spawn siblings
Tags: consent issues, implied sexual abuse
Wordcount: 410 / 392 on AO3
Notes: cazador trash party is go! @ smubble discord

Summary:

Excerpt:

Astarion knows that his siblings envy him. He sees it in their eyes, whenever Cazador comes calling at the dormitory door with a snap of his fingers and a curt, sharp order for him to get ready for some party.

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[personal profile] deerna2023-11-12 01:03 pm

bookends

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/halsin/tav (staeve)
Tags: remix, past torture, hurt/comfort, scars
Wordcount: 748 / 719 on AO3
Notes: staeve belongs to velnna/MAF

Summary:
Remix of outlines, by chaiiii, from Staeve's point of view.

Excerpt:

There's a muffled sound coming from Astarion — pain and fear and pleading all rolled in one — and something in Staeve snaps. He wants to murder Cazador so bad.

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[personal profile] deerna2023-11-06 12:57 pm

sweetest

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/halsin
Tags: triggers, past torture
Wordcount: 100 on AO3
Notes: written for the smubbles discord. references this fun thing cazador said.

Summary:
Halsin means to pay a compliment, he accidentally stumbles on a trigger Astarion didn't even know he had.

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[personal profile] deerna2023-10-20 11:36 pm

call a spade a spade

Rating: NSFW
Fandom: raven cycle/dreamers trilogy
Relationship: adam/ronan + the rest of the polycule
Tags: drinking and talking, talking about kinks (mentioned fisting, watersports, breathplay)
Wordcount: 569 / 549 on AO3
Notes: written for smubbles - international fisting day

Summary:
Playing truth or dare with the kids. The conversation turns kinky. Henry bites off more than he can chew. Gansey learns new things. Ronan has an overactive imagination.

Excerpt:

Henry harrumphed. “Spoilsport. Okay fine, your funeral, I can still salvage this.” He pointed a finger at Adam like a gun. “Top three kinky nonsense you got up to with Ronan in bed, go.” Adam raised an eyebrow at him.

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[personal profile] deerna2023-10-11 07:18 pm

mister impossible

Rating: NSFW
Fandom: raven cycle/dreamer trilogy
Relationship: gansey/ronan
Tags: Breathplay, Kink Negotiation, BDSM Scene, Dream Sex, implied polyamory, Dom/sub
Wordcount: 1764 / 1706 on AO3
Notes: smubbles: nightmares & dreams

Summary:

Excerpt:

Ronan licked his lips. “What if there were a way to do it safely. One hundred percent guaranteed.” Gansey steeled his expression. “There isn’t. Ronan, I promise you. Other people—” “I’m not talking of something easily accessible to other people,” Ronan said.

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[personal profile] deerna2023-09-25 12:19 am

fake it

Rating: NSFW
Fandom: baldur's gate
Relationship: astarion/omc
Tags: non-consensual, passed around as a party favor, trash partyyyy, aspyhxiation
Wordcount: N / 100 on AO3
Notes: for the smubble sep23 event

Summary:
astarion's experience with breathplay (spoiler: it's bad)

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[personal profile] deerna2023-08-31 12:35 pm

how much blood is too much blood

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: hunter x hunter
Relationship: kurapika/leorio
Tags: Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Near Death Experiences, Blood and Injury, Suicide Attempt, Depression, Timeline What Timeline, Suicidal Thoughts
Wordcount: 805 / 763 on AO3
Notes: for lee! it's late but it's here, finally.

Summary:
Leorio receives a call in the middle of the night. He knows it's Kurapika. He knows it's not a social call.

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[personal profile] deerna2023-06-08 12:20 am

on broken backs we beg for mercy

Rating: NSFW
Fandom: the raven cycle / the dreamers trilogy
Relationship: ronan & hennessy
Tags: Vampire!AU, dub-con, blood drinking, background relationships (adam/ronan, ronan has feelings for gansey, past kavinsky/ronan), a shitton of bad flashbacks.
Wordcount: 13.022 / 12,577 on AO3
Notes: remix of i won't be left here behind closed doors by elliptical

Summary:
What if Hennessy had asked Ronan to come to the party?

Excerpt:

These were the facts: Hennessy was going to get him killed. She was going to ask him to die for her; Ronan was going to bitch about it, and then he was going to do it anyway. He dreamt about walking willingly into it too many times not to recognize it for the prophecy it was. He just hoped it wasn’t going to be that night.

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[personal profile] deerna2023-04-25 06:04 pm

Screwing

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: Marvel
Relationship: Bucky/OMC
Tags: POV second person, online dating, crack, chatlogs
Wordcount: 715 / 683 on AO3
Notes: written for the smubbles event that is yet to happen. prompt: this tumblr post

transcription: [chatlog from grindr]
you: I'm not looking to fuck right now, but my bathroom sink is currently flooding the bathroom
you: I know it's kind of random, but can I borrow a flathead screwdriver by any chance?
you: I don't really know my neighbours and you're the closest person to me on Grindr
you:😅
other guy: yeah why not
[end chatlog]

Summary:
The one where your sink breaks while you're trying to get laid, and the Winter Soldier shows up to your door to bring you a screwdriver (and to fuck?)

Excerpt:

You: Hey. I swear I was down to fuck but my sink decided to flood my bathroom and it's kind of a mess right now.

You: I know this is going to sound weird as shit but do you have a flathead screwdriver i can borrow, by any chance?

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[personal profile] deerna2023-03-28 10:36 am

Crossroads

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: The Witcher
Relationship: Jaskier/Geralt
Tags: pre-slash, game-related shenanigans in a netflix timeline, implied underage bc jaskier is a gremlin and is lying about his age
Wordcount: 1445 / 1406 on a03
Notes: largely unbetaed, old as fuck

Summary:

Excerpt:

He looks so young, he thinks. “How old are you, again?” Geralt asks, the question out of his mouth before he can think better of it. [...] “I’ll be nineteen next spring,” he says, in a tone that implies I’m old enough to travel the world with a monster killer, thank you very much. Geralt doesn’t even remember being nineteen.

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[personal profile] deerna2023-02-16 10:16 pm

Remedies against invisible roommates

Rating: SAFE
Fandom: Raven Cycle
Relationship: Gansey/Ronan
Tags: pre-slash
Wordcount: 618 / 600 on ao3
Notes: for the smubble event on discord, for the prompt "pretending to sleep as their friend with or without benefits sneak into bed trying not to wake them up. There is silence for a little while, then they hear it whispered for the first time, almost too softly to hear: "I love you.”" except not really

Summary:

Excerpt:

Gansey and Ronan never talked about it. They stayed awake, plagued by insomnia, on different sides of a door.

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[personal profile] deerna2022-08-18 02:56 pm

what my heart just yearns to say in ways that can't be said

Rating: NSFW
Fandom: the witcher
Relationship: Geralt/Jaskier (mention of past eskel/geralt and geralt/ofc)
Tags: asexual Geralt, explicit/implicit sexual content (blow jobs, hand jobs, semi-public sex, anal), serious injuries, hurt/comfort, vomiting, temporary hearing loss, consensual underage sex, mention of sex workers, canon-typical witcher childhood, communication, non-sexual intimacy, hair brushing, burns
Wordcount: 9047
Notes: written for śmiech! Thanks for being so patient ;;

Summary:
Jaskier and Geralt are in a relationship. While Geralt does have feelings for Jaskier, he struggles to think about sex as anything other than something transactional. What else could a witcher like him offer to someone like Jaskier, after all?

Excerpt:

Not much changes between them: the witcher kills monsters; the bard sings. But also: they fuck.

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